It’s Monday afternoon and I find myself returning to where it all started. I am at Radiology in the Breast Services Unit waiting for an Ultrasound and possible biopsy. Susannah noticed a lump on my back just above my scar line a couple of weeks ago and pointed it out to Dr Fy at our last Oncology appointment. Dr Fy wasn’t sure what it was so decided to order an Ultrasound just in case. So here I lie on a bed in a consulting room, reflecting on all that has happened in the last few months, and wondering what’s next.

I don’t have the same level of stress as usual. I am pretty confident that we are just here to confirm that there is nothing to worry about. Yet I do worry a bit. How can I not? Susannah is with me and I know she feels the same. It’s that fear of the unknown.

I remember Dr Tv from when we came for Susannah’s ultrasound in July. I liked him then and I immediately relax when he enters the room. He looks through my notes and we talk about my situation. I bet you don’t do many back ultrasounds in the breast clinic, I joke. Not too many, he says.

He is, once again, very thorough. He moves the ultrasound wand over and around my upper left back region. He sees some swelling and lots of scarring, but is unable to locate any unusual mass. That’s a good thing! Nothing alarming or disturbing means nothing to biopsy so I am sent on my way. Thank you Dr Tv!

I feel reassured. All is well.