Not much sleep once again but I try to emulate the Visualize Healing technique and actually manage to drift off at some point. From what I’ve read it seems insomnia is a common occurrence amongst cancer patients so I am not alone. I guess it’s a combination of chemo drugs, stress and anxiety. If it were warmer I’d probably just give up on sleep and go for a walk or something, but it’s freezing outside so I stay in bed and try to relax.

The pains hit me with a vengeance mid morning. I take an OxyNorm pill which dulls it a bit. I decide to record the time, precise location of the pain, and the medication I take so I can see if there is a pattern or any progression to it. God I hope it’s not a sign that Big Betty is still growing. I resolve to keep fighting. I can’t do much physically but I can try to maintain my mental health.