I have zero energy and sloth my way through the day. Once again I have an overwhelming feeling of sadness and loss. Susannah is stressed and really worried. She says that she had a period of about 10 days (since the biopsy results) where she felt positive and hopeful that everything was going to be ok but that the latest news in Oncology has thrown her back into despair. I agree and feel the same. It’s almost worse than before as I feel like my chances of recovery are slipping away. 

We have a nice fire on the patio but I can’t stop the tears from falling. I’m lost. I don’t know what to do.

Haiku 7

My tears, unbidden
Flow down my cheeks like the rain
A torrent of pain