Today is a Final 16 knock out Women’s World Cup match between Switzerland and Spain and we have tickets! We drive to C’s and then she picks up her friends J and J and we go the match together. It’s awesome! The atmosphere is electric and everyone is there to have a good time. I wear a mask as we enter the stadium but remove it once we are seated. With no chemo this week I feel pretty good. Switzerland is outclassed and Spain wins easily. The crowd is jubilant and would be no matter what the result. I am tired by the time the game finishes and struggle to keep up as we walk back to the car. But it is so much fun! I am stoked that we got tickets – so far it’s been a great weekend.

Back home we decide to watch the Japan v Norway game on TV. We also decide to have some wine. This turns out not to be a smart decision. The game is great but afterwards Susannah gets really down and very teary. I don’t know what to do so I just hold her hand and hope she is able to release some tension. She has been my rock, but who is hers? Where can she put her stress? Not just the stress about the cancer, but also her work burdens. I know that she has constant stress and I worry about her.

Yet again I feel utterly hopeless.