Battling Big Betty:
My fight with Breast Cancer
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Saturday, 27 January 2024
Goddamn these steroids. I had the option to taper down after finishing the dosage for the first 4 days but I decided to just stop them instead. Bad move. They really do affect my mood and now I just feel depressed. I’ve ventured into I-don’t-want-to-die land. I really don’t want to stay here long because…
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Friday, 26 January 2024
My niece E has arranged to come over and bake cinnamon rolls with me. We will start in the morning as the process takes about 3 hours, although much of it involves waiting for the dough to prove and rise. Even though I took a zopiclone, I did not sleep at all last night. Despite…
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Thursday, 25 January 2024
Goddamn these steroids. I actually get a decent night’s sleep thanks to my magic zopiclone, but the minute I wake up I feel queasy and jittery once again. I stare over at the empty desk on the far side of the bedroom and realise I won’t be going back to any normal work life, or…
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Tuesday, 23 January 2024
I had a decent night’s sleep for once which is awesome. I wake feeling rested but queasy. Susannah doles out my morning drugs – steroids, anti nausea and anti reflux pills, plus a paracetamol. No big-gun painkillers required at this stage so it’s only a small pile. Today we go for my final surgical follow…
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Wednesday, 24 January 2024
Despite another zopiclone night I do not sleep at all and wake up feeling, sad, angry, and sick. Oh yay, all the feels. This sucks. I’m not up to doing much today. A lovely lady calls from Sweet Louise, a support group for people living with incurable cancer. We have a chat about the kinds…