Despite taking a zopiclone my sleep is disturbed again. When I wake, I just feel sad. I think I have been coping well with my new normal over the past few weeks, but now I am depressed.  

Today is a Public Holiday for Matariki (Maori New Year). There is a festival on Downtown so we decide to go. It’ll be good to switch things up and hopefully I can alter my mindset.

When we get there we find that the Town Hall is packed with people. We wear masks but very few others do. There are some nice Maori art and craft stalls and a couple of stages with entertainment, but it’s just too many people in too small a space so we leave. Outside there are some food trucks but we decide to skip the food and head home. It seems like Matariki celebrations are a work in progress. Give it a couple of years and the festivals will be great. I hope I’m around to experience them.

Getting outside was a good idea and I’m already getting back on track emotionally.