Category: January 2024
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Wednesday, 31 January 2024
Finally my Art Therapy class starts up again today. Boy oh boy I’ve missed these ladies. I update them on my diagnosis and prognosis and they are all super supportive. I cry as I do whenever anyone expresses sympathy or kindness but with these ladies we are soon chatting and joking as normal. It’s fabulous!…
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Tuesday, 30 January 2024
My cancer has spread everywhere. It is out of control. As I lie in a hospital room the doctors tell me they need to take more of my body away. I can still move my head so I look down and survey what remains. I can see my torso. It is scarred and puckered from…
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Sunday, 28 January 2024
Every morning over the past 8 months when I wake, I look out the window to the left and say morena to the kauri trees outside. Then, looking around the bedroom, one of the first things I see is my workstation under the far window. Even though I don’t particularly like my job and have…
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Saturday, 27 January 2024
Goddamn these steroids. I had the option to taper down after finishing the dosage for the first 4 days but I decided to just stop them instead. Bad move. They really do affect my mood and now I just feel depressed. I’ve ventured into I-don’t-want-to-die land. I really don’t want to stay here long because…
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Friday, 26 January 2024
My niece E has arranged to come over and bake cinnamon rolls with me. We will start in the morning as the process takes about 3 hours, although much of it involves waiting for the dough to prove and rise. Even though I took a zopiclone, I did not sleep at all last night. Despite…